Ok, so I am really getting to the point where I can’t cope with my courses and I am scared.
I am scared that years of abuse to my body have left me brain damaged in some way, or at least cognitively impaired. I used to be so able academically and now I am really really finding it hard to learn things I know I understood years ago.
The only things I really value about myself are my ability academically and my previously low weight (stopped that one a while ago).
Without that why I am even here?